Loneliness shot a hole through my heart
I fell on the ground
Tears like blood poured out
From the hole of a bottomless well
That used to be my heart
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- Yes or NO? That is the question
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- Crying out in need …
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- I am dancing
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- Have you noticed?
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- Marianne Williamson – Prayer
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- to be continued …
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- no more letting go
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- The visit
- I said my good-byes
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- the blind
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- In my ruins
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