It makes me feel foolish and wrong. It takes my sense of joy away in an instant. It cuts me off from my own self with harsh and cruel words. I became afraid that I have done something and all will go terribly wrong now. I fear losing your love.
Can I do wrong in your eyes? Can I be foolish enough that you turn away from me forever? Do I need to feel ashamed so I repent?
You smile with the greatest smile of the universe. Your laugh is like twinkling lights in my personal moment of darkness. It’s not only my joy and laughter that belongs to you, all of it does. My shame and anger is just as much yours as my kind cheerfulness and exuberance. It is all you, though sometimes distorted with my blind vision. You kindly take them all from me as I am climbing the next step on the ladder into your heart.