40 Days of Letting Go, Letting God
From Release to Embrace
Rule 38
“It is never too late to ask yourself, “Am I ready to change the life I am living? Am I ready to change within?” Even if a single day in your life is the same as the day before, it surely is a pity. At every moment and with each new breath, one should be renewed and renewed again. There is only one way to be born into a new life: to die before death.”*
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Today we affirm: I serve from a loving, willing heart,
knowing God is my Source for all I need.
Obligation is a biggie for me. I have acted out of obligation most of my life. I still do sometimes. I need to be careful. Each time I am asked to do something, or I am chosen to do something, I say ‘Hurray! Yes, I am gonna do it! Except that I forget to check if I can do that or not; if I wanted to do it or not.
There is an ‘unceasing should’ inside of me. When in doubt, ‘Mr Should’ steps is telling me affably, that ‘ You ought to do that, that is the right thing to do, you know!’ Each time I say ‘No, it is not for me!’, there is a little voice inside of me saying: ‘You could have done it, why did you refuse, it is really not nice of you, you know!’
This is my ‘obligation-blame/shame’ Game.
It is never too late to ask yourself, “Am I ready to change the life I am living? Am I ready to change within?” Even if a single day in your life is the same as the day before, it surely is a pity. At every moment and with each new breath, one should be renewed and renewed again. Rule 38
Today’s rule is spot on again. Am I ready to change the life I am living? I so hope I am! There is aspects of my life that is really tiresome and a ‘Debby downer’. I keep on finding myself in situations where I act from the same place of fear and misunderstanding and the results are obviously the same. Every time I stay YES to an obligation that is not aligned with who I am, I drag myself down into self-pity and anger. Every time, I do not take the opportunity to change – e.g. say NO – I am letting myself down.
It is time to release obligation and serve myself first with a loving heart …
What did you discover by contemplation on this rule and Lent reading?
in Loving and with many Blessings,
Rev Kudlik
Please note that though I may use ‘him’ or ‘his’ pronouns to talk about God/the Divine, it is only because the English language does not have a gender neutral pronoun. ‘They’ sounds odd to me to use and ‘it’ sounds lifeless.